Published inWordsmith Library·PinnedMember-onlyThe Overwhelm of “Her”An Emotional Retrospection — I feel the need to crack open, wide open, and allow the cacophony of bullshit emotions inside of me to leak like oil onto the sidewalk. It’s hard to keep them stuffed in there, each in a separate compartment, you know? How do you tuck away the liquid malleability of…Poetry1 min readPoetry1 min read
Published inRainbow Salad·4 days agoMember-onlyI Am Now SomeoneWhat a beautiful gift to be — I am now someone who seeks out pretty planters and crawls into bed at the earliest hour and values her alone time (sometimes more than the time she spends with others); who prefers solitude over house music and loves plants and even gardens a little bit. (When did that happen?)…Love1 min readLove1 min read
May 22Member-onlyWhy Won’t You See Me?It’s all I ask of you — Heartbreak1 min readHeartbreak1 min read
May 5Member-onlyMy Demon. Your Demon. We All Get a Demon.A Quick Thought — We are all battling demons. Sometimes more than one. Some are heavier than others, their claws digging into our backs as their sticky bodies leave slimy residue all over our skin. Sometimes we hunch over at the weight of our demons, and sometimes we fling our arms to the heavens…Trauma2 min readTrauma2 min read
Published inIf Not Romance·Jan 26Member-onlyHow Do I Tell You?Will You Look At Me the Same? — I’m not sure how to tell you that you’ve ruined me for any other. How to implore that you look at me and really see the person you so flippantly toss around and aside like a ragged doll. Whenever I enter your home in anticipation and you throw me against the wall, I’d like…Love2 min readLove2 min read
Dec 18, 2022Member-onlyEating Disorders and Lizzo AppreciationThis is a Lizzo stan account — I want to be sensitive to this topic because weight and body image are sensitive topics, and they should be treated with compassion and care. I love Lizzo. I know Lizzo is “for the big girls”, but, I, too, find her utterly inspirational — and I’m a skinny white chick…20225 min read20225 min read
Aug 11, 2022Member-onlyThe Justification of Chronic PainI feel like I have to justify that I’m in pain. Which, isn’t really all that fair, but here we are. Hi, my name is Beth, I’m 37, and I live with chronic pain. In fact, the last 22 years of my life have been filled with pain, some days…Chronic Pain4 min readChronic Pain4 min read
Mar 6, 2022Member-onlyI Have No “In Case of Emergency”And other words about RSD — I do not know who to put down “in case of emergency”. I usually write my mother’s name and number down but it never feels right. She’s in another state thousands of miles away. She doesn’t even really fly. So, you see, she isn’t necessarily the right person to put…Mental Health4 min readMental Health4 min read